True unconditional love brings joy, companionship, and sometimes heartbreak.
Yesterday, I had to send my sweet loving Shadow to Heaven.
Today, my heart breaks.
Nine years ago we were blessed to receive Shadow and Precious into our family. Shadow, my slightly nervous, sometimes scared, never one to venture, always full of love, kitty. We would get down to his level, scratch his ears, pet his head and rub his back. At times he would jump up to our level, begging for attention. Never the snuggler, he was uncomfortable being held captive. But love, he had unlimited love to share, and he could outlast any of us with desire for our attention.
And he was a talker. Asking for food, yes, he was an eater. Asking for attention, no, demanding attention! Each morning after we ate, he would come and rub his head against my husband’s leg for a foot rub. Oh he enjoyed that! And we would look for him each morning in the kitchen.
You look at him with kindness and he would purr! He would instantly purr. It was so hard to say no.
While I got ready for work he would jump up on the dresser and I would pet his head while I drink my coffee. If I got distracted by the TV he would so gently touch my arm with his paw (no claws) as a reminder to come back to him. He would do that on the couch too. He would sit on the back of the couch and gently tap your shoulder for some loving.
So, when in recent weeks his conversation slowed and his energy decreased, concern grew. We thought he had asthma. Perhaps he did. The treatment seemed to help. But he had less energy and more breathing issues. And then his eating decreased. That was the strongest signal that something was not right.
The trip to the vet yesterday revealed a heart tumor and a collapsed lung. We knew God was ready for him, he had served his time on earth.
Yes, my heart hurts for my loss, and rejoices for his peace. I am forever grateful for the love and joy he brought to us over the past nine year. He brought energy, light, and conversation. He would talk to me, and I would talk back.
The home is much quieter now. I miss him dearly and my heart hurts.
I will shower Precious with love and appreciate her with all my heart.
Will I do it again? You bet. I relish the joy my pets bring, and I know I am providing them a safe and happy environment full of love.
Soon the sadness will decrease, and always the memories will bring me joy.
But today, I cry.
♥♥♥ I will always love you, Shadow ♥♥♥